Doing good!

We have been doing much better this week. On Sunday, we actually made it into church! In fact, we were asked to give the opening and closing prayer. What a great way to come back after 3 weeks! I was so happy at the end of the 3 hour block. We even stayed for choir practice. WOW! It's like after that hurdle things are getting easier. I still have my emotional roller coaster ride. But it's getting easier to handle. I am planning on getting back to my volunteering this week too. =)

On Monday I went for my follow-up exam. It went well. The doctor said everything look great! I have to wait 3 cycles and then we can start trying again. I asked her if I should take clomid on that 3rd cycle. She said that would be great. I got pregnant right away on my first try in November. My sister-in-law Mandy suggested I try that first month on my own.... Hmmmm? I've been thinking about that. But we have around 3 months to decide. We will definitely pray and fast about it.

So, I've been slowly getting back to a normal routine. I'm fulfilling my calling in church. I'm enjoying my duties as a domestic goddess. I've been trying a lot of new recipes. I even got out the sewing machine and made some curtains out of some spare material I had in the basement. Also, I've been making homemade bread for 3 weeks. It's so great to make fresh healthy bread and to save money! =) I've gotten back into exercising too. I want to take full advantage of our 3 month wait to get in better shape for our next pregnancy.

Marvin's doing great. He's working super hard with his school work, his full-time job, and his church calling (EQ Secretary).

That's all for now! We love you all! =)

The healing begins...

I had my D&E on Monday at 12:30pm. It went very well and I woke up soon after it was done. My Mom was with me at the hospital. When we got home I laid down and rested. I was pretty alert so I was awake for a while. The doctor did a great job... I didn't feel much pain. Same thing on Tuesday... not much pain at all. Then on Wednesday... WOW... it hurt bad! It felt like really, really bad cramps. I have been taking my pain meds. but they aren't taking all the pain away. So far today it's better then yesterday. 

I'm taking it one day at a time! Now... I can begin to heal. My Mom is probably going to leave tomorrow or Saturday. I'll miss her like crazy! I know I'll be fine... I'll put my trust in the Lord. I'll write more in a few days. I'm still not totally with it. We love you all and look forward to getting back into the swing of things. Thank you again for all your prayers. =)

Update...

I went to the OB today to sign papers for my procedure. I will be having my D&E on Monday morning. It is possible between now and then I might miscarry on my own. Hopefully, I can hold off to have it done on Monday by the doctor. After 2 weeks I'll see her again to see how I've healed, then we have to wait 3 months to start trying again. I'll do whatever the doctor says!

Marvin has been AMAZING through this. I've been having a hard time being alone, which is understandable, and he's been there for me whenever I needed him (thankfully he's been working from home). Mandy, my sister-in-law, has been there for me too. Offering advice, comforting me, getting me to laugh. I haven't wanted to talk to anyone yet. It's still hard to talk about. I know after I have the procedure done and healed for a few days... I'll feel like talking.

We are so grateful for all the love and support from our friends and family. We have felt the power of your prayers! Sorry I haven't returned calls or emails... I just need a little more time. Know that I have received them and I am so grateful for your friendship and love!

We hope that you will think of us on Monday when I have my procedure done. I will put another update on our blog a few days after the procedure. I know it will go well. I have a wonderful doctor!

My loving Mommy is driving up here this Friday and staying all week to help me recover. It's times like these you realize how close your family is and how wonderful your friends are. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts for all that you do for us! In a few weeks I'll be back to my old self again. I hope that's a good thing! =)

BAD NEWS!

I'm heading for a miscarriage. I knew something was wrong when my OB called me personally. She said it doesn't look good and that I'm probably going to miscarry. She said I was probably 10 weeks along, but the baby stopped growing at 4 1/2 weeks. So, she wants to wait a week to see if I can pass it naturally and then if it doesn't she will do a D&E (get it out herself).
I'm sad and so embarrassed, but she said we are not defeated! We know that I can get pregnant! I'm just focusing on the positives.
If you call me I can't promise that I will answer. I need a few days to go through this. Marvin is wonderful! So supportive and loving! I know everything will be fine... I just need some time to grieve and to miscarry. I will keep the blog updated on my progress.